I love reading long bios on people's profiles, so this may be quite long!|
I've been working as an independent games developer for a few years, specialising in RPGs made in Flash. I do all the work on them myself: the art, code, writing, and music, and I probably go overboard with all of those things! Some of my games were moderately successful a few years ago; two of them got daily deviations and everything! Wow, gasp! I just know you'll be impressed by my pair of DDs. I don't mind if you stare.
It's a very isolating path to follow, though, working on games alone from home, and I haven't finished a game in a while because of this loneliness... I'm hoping to change that soon, though!!
I've always been into fantasy art, particularly dragons, though I've been getting into drawing humans recently. I really like expressive, emotional pieces and strongly stylised styles! Art is likely to remain a hobby for me, though I do use my art skills - such as they are - to make the graphics for my games.
I'd describe myself as introverted, sensitive, and empathetic; I feel what you feel, and I hate to hurt. I've gone through life feeling 'different' from others when it comes to core values... but I love finding those rare people I can relate to on a deep and meaningful level!
I currently have only online acquaintances and no close friends, and I lost all my in-person friends when moving country a few years ago (and met none while making games from home, because how would I?), so I'm sort of on the lookout for people I can form meaningful and entertaining bonds with! I've met some wonderful people on this site in the past, so I really hope that I can do so again! I feel rather rusty when it comes to talking to others, though, so sorry if I'm awkward at first!
I particularly like lending an empathetic ear to people who want someone to talk about their worries with, as I know how it is to want someone to talk to in a deeper way like that and get understanding and support in return. I've had difficulties with anxiety, depression and loneliness in the past - indeed, they still plague me at least somewhat - so I'd be particularly able to relate to concerns like that.
I'm single, and really wish this wasn't so but have no idea how I'd ever possibly meet anyone! It's terrifying, quite frankly!
The silly INFJ ~ EII ~ 4w5-5w4-9w1 Sx/So thing I have below my name up there is my PERSONALITY TYPES. I'm somewhat obsessed with those personality type system things, because I love learning more about why people do the things they do, and why people don't act the same way as myself. Discovering them was really enlightening!
I'm actually working on a website about personality types, which you can see here if you're curious: personality.alorafane.com
A brief summary:
INFJ - Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging: I am introverted, and am drained by interactions but really seek deep bonds. I'm intuitive, which means I focus more on abstract concepts and fantasies over real-life practical things. I'm 'feeling', which means that I value emotions, understanding and support over cold logic, facts, or blunt problem-solving. The 'judging' bit is harder to explain, but it basically means I tend to prefer planning rather than spontaneity.
EII - Ethical Intuitive Introvert: This is similar to INFJ, but it means that I specifically love to talk about personal things on a deeper level, and I'm always seeking them out. I share my own thoughts and feelings and love doing the same with others, getting to know them at their core. However, I tend to assess whether or not I may be 'compatible' with someone when I talk to them, and the idea of talking at length with someone very unlike me worries me due to a fear of conflict.
4w5 - Enneatype 4 is all about feeling different from others. They are emotionally sensitive, they see beauty in melancholy, and they worry a lot about the things that set them apart from others. It isn't a case of being a 'special snowflake'; rather, it's a worry about being unable to genuinely connect on a deep and meaningful level. They are also very open and honest about their feelings and weaknesses rather than trying to seem better or more enigmatic than they are. 4w5 means a type 4 with traits of type 5, described below.
5w4 - Enneatype 5 is all about concerns with competence. Type 5s retreat away from the world to work on their skills, feeling that they can only face the world when they master a specific ability. They tend to be introverted observers rather than active participants, and have an intellectual vibe about them.
9w1 - Enneatype 9 seeks peace and calmness, avoiding conflict; they hate to be a bother to others. Type 1 is very moral and responsible; perfectionistic, even. 9w1 combines traits of the two.
Sx/So - This basically means that I value, look for, think about and worry about intense intimacy, and how other people feel about me, rather than about being safe or comfortable. As such, I bare my heart freely in the hope that someone will think "I can relate to that!" and approach me, from which an intense relationship might blossom, rather than being guarded and secretive in order to avoid harm.
Hopefully that's not all just confusing and annoying!
Things I like or don't!
I make and like games, mostly RPGs! Here is a list of some of my favourites:
• Final Fantasy
• The Legend of Zelda
• Ni No Kuni
• Chrono Trigger
• Neverwinter Nights
• Earthbound and MOTHER 3
• Xenoblade Chronicles
• The Last Story
• Tales of the Abyss
• Eternal Sonata
• Mario & Luigi series
• Jade Cocoon
• Spyro (original trilogy)
• Super Mario World
• Abe's Oddysee and Exoddus
• Vagrant Story
• Monster Rancher 2
• Shadow of the Colossus
I don't like shooters and other dark and gritty violent things, however!
In general, I really like 'soft' and sensitive people; kindness, empathy, things like that. I like people who care!
I don't like aggression and apathy, however; people who don't care, or who hurt others for fun. Many things stem from this; I don't like guns, violence, or horror, for example. I also don't drink, smoke or do drugs... though I wish it were easier to find others who don't either! We seem to be so rare!