That other journal has been on my page for too long...
It's embarrassing to look at, yet it's not like it's any different to how my mind still is... I've been thinking a lot about how I am and what people said about me, and it's had varying effects on me...
It's, predictably, made me hate myself and made me have rather unpleasant thoughts about some of the people who comment on my stuff, and I continue to find them intimidating, but oh well...
I've also felt like trying to improve and be more positive over the last few days or weeks and it worked for a while, but I seem to be slipping back into my sheer negativity now... I'm going to continue making an attempt to improve, but it's not going to be a quick thing. It never could be.
It's both extremely fascinating and sort of embarrassing and shameful hearing what people had to say about me - those of you that did comment, anyway - and I thank you for commenting even if I replied not at all or bitterly...
I've got loads of comments in my inbox and I wanted to make a point of replying to them all, but I have a tendency to just reply in my head then either start typing a response then leave it or delete it before finishing it, then not returning, or I just put it off and procrastinate because either it's intimidating and I want my comments to be JUST RIGHT (not that they ever ARE, though), so a simple response just isn't enough because I'm not fond of such responses myself...
Often I think that I might have nothing nice or, uh, normal enough to say, or there's nothing good to say or 'no way I can win' in some cases (that is, if someone points out various ways in which I'm faulted, I can see nothing to say that wouldn't make them just say "see, you are like that because of this what you just said", or something)...
Some people are also just intimidating to me and I feel nervous about replying and if I get a reply to my response to them, it fills me with dread and anxiety... This is a fault of mine though, and it's not like I don't appreciate them commenting since they kindly took the time to do so, but... hmm.
That makes me wonder though... Do any of you have people who comment on your stuff who you find intimidating? Would you tell them?
I never would because, well, they're intimidating for one thing and I'd dread their reaction, AND I don't want to upset them in any way (I would not want to cause anger or sadness or anything like that).
I feel nervous about being as vague as this, without specifying anyone so the ones I am thinking about may assume I don't mean them and the ones I'm not talking about might think I mean them, but, uh... Uh. o_O
Also, do any of you feel like if you don't respond to a comment within a certain time period, you shouldn't reply at all because it'd be too late? I seem to be that way... I leave comments for too long then don't reply because I dread it just being annoying to bring up something the person had forgotten about like that, weeks after they said it...
I don't mind receiving late comments myself, but I find it difficult to reply to them most of the time.
But then again, I find it difficult to reply to comments in general...
Anyway, uh, I've not been checking deviantART for a few days, so I'm out of touch with things here... I keep meaning to become more active again here and to finally do something about the THOUSANDS of messages in my inbox, but I've been intending to do that for months now and instead things just keep building up more and more... Hmm.
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#Yalortians
awesome dragons, by the way
awesomeness!!
nice!!!!
looking 4ward 2 d chapter 3!!
kips ups d gud workz!!
haha i also just made an acct in fighunter^^
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There is more than meets the eye...
If you get a minute, and feel like it, visit my page [link] and take my quick poll.
Anyway, I'm looking forward to playing more of your games, but I have to deal with some eyestrain
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I am calm....for now....*finds lemonade* weeeeeeeee! *bounces off walls*
Everyone's crazy in their own little way...
...because one person's crazy is someone else's sanity~
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Personal Quotes:
"Sanity is boring."
"Insanity is the hot sauce on the burrito of life."
"Schade, das du keine Bälle haben."
"I'm, the type of guy who brings a knife to a gun fight. And WINS."
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#Yalortians
You are an INCREDIBLY talented programmer. I've been checking your site (although I don't have an account) for years since you first released Mardek. You should keep doing a great job, no rush at all. It would not be fair of me to rush your work, because that is selfish. Also, I think your work is definently worthy of being on the Xbox Live Arcade, WiiWare, Or whatever the PS3 calls it.
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Personal Quotes:
"Sanity is boring."
"Insanity is the hot sauce on the burrito of life."
"Schade, das du keine Bälle haben."
"I'm, the type of guy who brings a knife to a gun fight. And WINS."
SMECOF2005X - Beta version when I play
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Delay, delay!
Journal Entry: Fri Mar 20, 2009, 5:55 AM
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Good songs. I listened to about half of all 3. Then , the melody started to be repeating. But it will be good music for a platformer, like Raider. But maybe you should try to experiment with a guitar. It will probably make your music better (and a lot more popular) because people seem to like guitars... And you should stop reading every single review. The best way to keep your fans, is to focus on making games, or other art. Or doing things like reading books, looking at art and playing games. For more inspiration. And you don,t need Firequill to have a life. If you hate your lonely life and want more socialness, you can buy a pet or walk outside or something.
-WARNING: THIS IS THE WISDOM OF A NO-LIFE 13-YEAR-OLD. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!
from a friend on the computer, did what it told me to, and within a week,
everything I had wished came true!! Here's an exact copy,
this
really
works!!!!
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1. To yourself, say the name of the only guy or girl you wanna be with 3
times!
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2. Think of something you wanna accomplish within the next week and say
it to your self 6 times!!
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3. If you had 1 wish what would it be? say it to yourself 9 times!!!
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4. Think of something that you want to happen between you and that
1special person and say it to your self 12 times!!!
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5. Now, heres the hard part! Pick only 1 of these wishes and as you scroll
down focus and concentrate on it and think on nothing else but that wish.
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Now make one last & final wish about that one wish that you picked.
After reading this, you have 1 hour to send it out to 15 people, and what
you wished for will come true within in one week!
u only get one chance!!!!! Now scroll down and think of your
crush!!!
Keep going
down
Keep going
Keep
going
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did you think of your crush? I hope so, that was your last chance. Now
pay very close attention this important message!
Sorry but once read, must be sent. Yes, this is one of those kinda chain
letters that everyone hates. This one has been going since 1864 and if you
break this chain, you will pay!!!!!! Remember that after hearing these
stories.
First Example:
Take Barbra Wallace.. She was a pretty lucky girl, up till she got this same
chain letter. She had a crush on the same kid since kindergarden. when she
got this mail she didn't pay any attention to it. She just thought, no big deal.
And deleted it. The next day her dad got fired and her mom dies in a car
crash. If she would have sent the letter none of that would have happened
and her mom would be alive.
Second Example:
Try Freddie D. Now Freddie D. was your average nerd. Had glasses, was
short and chubby, was in gifted. All the signs of
your total dork. He also received this letter and sent it to 51
people in the hour. Now, like Barbra, he had a crush on a girl since 3rd
grade. The next day after sending the chain the girl confessed her love for
him ever since 3rd grade. Freddie D. finally had the courage to ask her out,
and of course, she had been waiting to yes to that for years. They grew up
and
married each other to live happily forever.
Third Example:
Now if you couldn't relate to the others, this'll get ya hooked. Listen to this.
A kid named Jordan Johnson was just getting on AOL to check his mail.
He was a quiet kid, not that popular but not a geek either. he was just
normal. He saw he had mail from his friend. It was this exact letter. Now
Jordan Johnsen was a smart kid and he knew what could happen if he didnt
pass it on. He simply pulled a few friends from his buddy list and sent it
along. The next day, about that same time, he got a phone call. It said he
had won the lottery!
then his dad came home and bought him a new bike! His mom bought him
Nintendo64 and play station! His grandmother sent him a new computer,
and his best friend
gave him tickets to the concert he wanted to go to, Kid Rock and Limp
Bizkit! Then he inherited a brand-new tv from his aunt! He was goin' wild!
the next day his secret crush asked him out, and they have been going out
ever since.
Now, you heard the stories. I know which person i'd rather
be, but thats up to you. I wouldn't wanna end up like Barbra but thats only
me. We all want what we cant have but now's ur chance to go out withthat
special somebody ur waiting for. Take it or leave it. If you send this to-
1 person- you will lose all luck in ur love life..... forever!!!!!
10 people- your crush will say they like you as a friend...... ONLY!!!!!
15 people- your crush will say they like you
20 people- your crush will ask you out!
25 people- your crush will kiss you!!
30 people - Your crush will have sex with you
35 people or more- All of the above!!
Don't blow it, it's ur chance to shine! Have everything u wanted, and more!
Now, complaining cus u dont have any
friends. Well theres an answer 4 everything. It's simple, just go in a chat
room, pick some names and send away! but here's the catch..... you only
have 1 hour
if the pain goes on im not gonna make it...!
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P.S.
i'm sorry for sending this to u, its just that i'm really paranoid i'm soo sorry!
can you plz help me out? ive got myself into a little bet that the spearss would win in this epic icon down and we are just a few behind...plz plz join (and get all yoru freidns to) its the last chacne to join today...i beg of you!!
[link]
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Darkness by day
Darkness by night
Member of the Mythical Creatures Krew (Im the Wyrm)... [link]
thankyou to GlacierDragon: [link] for my curent avatar
plz plz plz would you take a look at this zombie movie i made it took me a very long time (nearly a year to complete) and im trying to get as many youtube ratings and comments as pos!!
[link]
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Darkness by day
Darkness by night
Member of the Mythical Creatures Krew (Im the Wyrm)... [link]
thankyou to GlacierDragon: [link] for my curent avatar
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hooray!!!!!!!!!!!!
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You want to read my signature? Is that some kind of weird pick-up line?
'blah'
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im not an very good artist............yet.
I decided it was about time to let everyone on the new Dragon Artists List know they are on there.
Its not a club and doesn't require you to do anything, its just an A-Z listing of deviantART members who create dragons. If you wish to be removed, just let me know and I'll take you off. If you have friends who want to be added, tell them to send me a comment or note
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Avatar art by =Dragon-Lady
it sounds really intresting
i read your journal and im very curious
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Oh mai gosh~!
Smile sweety, You're Special
Are did I misunderstood you on Fighunter.com?
My mistake if I'm wrong.
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You cannot stop me...
And I really should stop trying to make stupid songs in my siggy...
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