Pseudo L Wolf
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art

United Kingdom

Hello. I am 'Pseudolonewolf'. I currently reside somewhere in Wales, though I am from England originally (barely a difference though, I suppose!)

I suppose that these days I'm considered to be a Flash developer; my MARDEK RPG things are my most popular works to date. I try to draw and compose and stuff too, but my skills are much more feeble than I would prefer...

I am an awkward, bitter and shy introverted person. I have Social Anxiety, which for the most part confines me to my home; I can't do many things that Normal People can do without thinking about it. Using a phone, going into a shop, getting a job... I just can't do those things, or at least not without severe distress.
So I spend all my time at my computer, creating my own worlds.

I tend to be critical about many things, and picky, because I am a perfectionist and have high standards for everything; I hold myself to these same high standards, of course.
I tend to admire traits such as empathy, understanding where others are coming from and generally being inoffensive, and I strongly dislike things like arrogance, tooting one's horn, forcefulness, condescension, and cruelty.
I also admire people putting care into things, like their spelling and grammar.

I'm not fond of this 'snarky' sort of attitude that seems all the rage these days, to belittle people and laugh at them when they 'fail' (or 'are fail', as people might perhaps say, though I don't use slang or memes or things like that myself).
I hate trolls and people who would say things like 'grow up' or 'get over it' or 'deal with it' rather than understanding things at a deeper level...
It seems like people who have emotional investment in things online - as I do - are laughed down at by these snarky trollish types, told that 'it's the internet, you aren't meant to take it seriously', which to me makes them just sound like sociopaths...

I don't drink, or do drugs, or swear, I am a pacifist, I can't even harm flies or mosquitoes, and I hate parties and sport and guitars. I am also quite an atheist.

My, my, don't I sound like quite the pleasant fellow?!?
My pickiness and the fact that I distance myself from interest or language fads and struggle socially leaves me very lonely, and I keep hoping I'll come across people that I can relate to deeply one day... but that probably just seems unrealistic.

I am selective about who I'd befriend though... I make friends slowly and cautiously, since I dread finding myself in a friendship with someone who I can't really relate to (being able to relate on a deep level is important to me) because I'd not want to be disappointing but would lack the social skills to keep things going...
I am terrified of responsibility if it involves other people and the chance of disappointing them.

So yes. I probably wrote more personal stuff here than is normal, but, uh... Hmm.

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