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Memody: Sindrel Song - Available now!
Today, I released the indie game I've spent the better part of the year working on! It's called Memody: Sindrel Song, and it's about mimicking music, the light and dark sides of memory, and finding value and purpose in life despite mental illness.
I've already linked to the trailer from here before, but here it is again:
It's available on Kartridge here: https://kon.gg/31SNfeQ
I'll be releasing on Steam, Android, and iOS in the near future, though I'm not sure exactly when.
I know I'm not exactly active here these days (I wonder who is?), but the hardest part of the whole process is going to be getting the word out about it, so I've got t
Memody: Sindrel Song - Trailer
I rarely visit deviantART these days, but I wanted to post an update about something I wrote in a journal entry... 27 weeks ago, apparently. In that, I talked about starting on a music mimicking indie game with deep lore and themes of mental illness.
Well, I've stuck with it, and I'm planning to release it soon!
It's something that I made while recovering from brain cancer, and while struggling with mental health issues that I've talked about a lot on this site in the past.
I did everything myself: programming, 3D graphics, music composition, concept, writing, etc.
I hope there's something about it that people might enjoy, or which might
Sindrel Song
Happy beginnings of 2019!
In the past few months, I had neurosurgery lasting 8+ hours to treat my brain cancer, and I'm currently undergoing daily radiotherapy to treat what's left of it. It's been a tough recovery, and it's not over yet. So that's fun.
While that's going on, I've been working on this short, fairly simple game, with a deep kind of lore; the kind a lot of people on this site seem to be into (or were back when I visited regularly anyway). Here's a (poor quality) gameplay video:
Basically, you're one of these anthro-like 'sindrel' creatures, and you mimic the melodies of other sindrels in order to make friends with them and b
Update - 2018
It's been a while! I last posted here a couple of years ago to talk about a mobile game that I was making. Sadly, that didn't really work out; I did finish making the first three chapters, and released them for Android (releasing for Apple devices proved more difficult), but real life got in the way and I had to redirect my attention elsewhere. I have a Psychology degree now, though. Plus I found out that I have a brain tumour. Did I write about that here? I don't remember. I'm supposed to be having surgery for it very soon. While I wait, I've been trying to get back into creative stuff, so I thought I might as well post some of it here.
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YAAAY, SURVEY-THINGS!
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
That depends. Are we talking strictly real-life, or can they be fictional? Because if fictional is in, then Skulduggery Pleasant. The Doctor would've been my first choice, but alas, he spends much of his time out in space...
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
"No, not particularly."
4) What do you think about most?
Fictional characters and settings. People don't know it, but I play make-believe with myself pretty much all the time.
5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
Ooooh
7) What's your strangest talent?
I can move one ear at a time. Lots of people can move their ears, but I'm the only one I've met who can move them individually.
8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)
9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
My grandpa wrote one. It was never published. I was six at the time.
10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
Uh... never?
11) Do you have any strange phobias?
12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?Not as far as you know.
13) What's your religion?
Acceptance.
14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Heading towards inside. And probably getting hives or sniffles.
15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Behind it, but only because I dislike having pictures taken of me. It just feels... I dunno. Unnatural? I don't like it. (I'm also a terrible photographer, just FYI)
16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
[insert last band I listened to]
17) What was the last lie you told?
How do you know I won't lie about the lie I told? HMMM? Think about it.
18) Do you believe in karma?
No, just cruel irony.
19) What does your URL mean?
My singular URL is aud.ition, which is my blog/resume-thingy. My stepdad owns .ition and .itory (not .itty, sadly, that one has potential), and my name is Audrey, so it's also a delightful little play on words.
20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
One and the same: overpowering empathy. It seems like some days I can walk into a room and tell what everyone around me is feeling. Is that a strength or a weakness? Depends on who you ask. I really don't know.
21) Who is your celebrity crush?
David Tennant. You never forget your first Doctor.
24) Do you have a collection of anything?
26) Are you happy with the person you've become?
Eh, I dunno. There are plenty of small ways I feel I could improve, but I don't feel any great need to do so. Conversely, I can think of a number of large ways I could be much much worse. So I guess I'm fairly neutral about myself at this moment in time.
27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
Any loud, sudden noises. That's basically my instant panic button.
I really like the sound of shattering glass/ice, which is pretty bizarre if you think about it...
28) What's your biggest "what if"?
That's... private.
29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
I don't know. I believe in the afterlife, or at least that there's something else after we die; I kind of have to, otherwise my Grandpa and my uncle are just... gone. Which hurts too much to ponder. As for ghosts specifically, until I have solid evidence/personal experience to prove or disprove their existence, I'm going to keep an open mind with a healthy bit of skepticism.
I think that there surely must be other life out there; if the universe really is infinite, then the odds actually support it. As for alien abductions and that sort of stuff, I'm taking the same attitude as my view on ghosts. Other life may very well exist, but if it was advanced enough to find us before we found it, I think they'd stay the crap away.
30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm
I hit my right arm on my dresser! D:
33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?
34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
*shrugs* I'll listen to nearly anything, but I honestly have no idea what most singers look like.
35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
That's a loaded question. Does something need to have a meaning in order to be good or enjoyable? If you really insist, I guess the meaning of life is to live it.
36) Define Art.
Hmmm.... art is something someone creates because it has meaning to them. That's what I think.
37) Do you believe in luck?
Yes. I don't have any. I believe in statistics and probability, too, but neither of those can explain why I always need to flip USB cables over two times to plug them in. Mathematically, it's quite astounding.
38) What's the weather like right now?
39) What time is it?
12:48 in the morning. I should go to bed.
40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
I don't drive, firstly because we can't afford a car/insurance, but also because I'm terrified that I would crash...
41) What was the last book you read?
42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
No, it gives me a headache. Easily one of my least favorite smells.
43) Do you have any nicknames?
Aud. Just Aud. Which is pronounced 'odd'. Make of that what you will.
44) What was the last movie you saw?
How to Train Your Dragon. I love that movie.
45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
In the summer of 2006 or 2007, I tripped on a couch cushion my brother had decided needed to be on the floor for reasons unknown, sprained my ankle horribly, and banged my leg just above it on a small step in our living room as I fell to the floor, giving myself some of the worst bruises I've ever had. All of this right before a trip to the movies, which was hastily cancelled in favor of x-rays, and also a camping trip the following weekend. I stayed at my aunt's house. On the plus side, I'm now really good at using crutches!
46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
No, but not for lack of trying. I found a dead bee, stinger-side-up, with my bare foot instead D:
47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
No, but it probably won't be long now. I kinda cycle through two or three big ones.
48) What's your sexual orientation?
Not a clue. Never been in any sort of relationship other than 'friend' or 'family member', so I've never found out.
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
My third grade teacher told the class I was mentally retarded one day when I was home sick. Wasn't that kind of her.
50) Do you believe in magic?
I so wish it was real. I could use some magic.
51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
Not really. There are some people I just can't stand to be near very long, but they're always guilty of some incredibly terrible stuff. It takes a lot to really get under my skin.
52) What is your astrological sign?
Pics Piec Pec The one with two fish that starts with a P.
53) Do you save money or spend it?
Save it. I don't have a job and rarely come by money that doesn't need to be used right away, so I tend to jealously hoard spare cash for months, carefully deliberating on what to use it for.
54) What's the last thing you purchased?
Uh... *thinks for a minute* Also Pokemon X, actually. Still haven't beat the Elite Four, though; waiting until I can transfer certain Pokemon over.
55) Love or lust?
Love. I think I'd be too timid to be driven by lust, even if I did feel it towards someone.
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
That depends. Are we talking strictly real-life, or can they be fictional? Because if fictional is in, then Skulduggery Pleasant. The Doctor would've been my first choice, but alas, he spends much of his time out in space...
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
"No, not particularly."
4) What do you think about most?
Fictional characters and settings. People don't know it, but I play make-believe with myself pretty much all the time.
5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
I've heard it's nice to sleep in the nude, but I have two little brothers and privacy is not a thing apparently, so clothes aren't optional.
I've heard it's nice to sleep in the nude, but I have two little brothers and privacy is not a thing apparently, so clothes aren't optional.
7) What's your strangest talent?
I can move one ear at a time. Lots of people can move their ears, but I'm the only one I've met who can move them individually.
8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)
Girls are people. Boys are people. I wish everyone could understand that sometimes...
9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
My grandpa wrote one. It was never published. I was six at the time.
10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
Uh... never?
11) Do you have any strange phobias?
Elevators. I'm afraid they'll get stuck, or fall down, or a number of other such unpleasant things... *shudder* I'm not really one for exercise, but I'll take the stairs whenever possible.
12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
13) What's your religion?
Acceptance.
14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Heading towards inside. And probably getting hives or sniffles.
15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Behind it, but only because I dislike having pictures taken of me. It just feels... I dunno. Unnatural? I don't like it. (I'm also a terrible photographer, just FYI)
16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
[insert last band I listened to]
17) What was the last lie you told?
How do you know I won't lie about the lie I told? HMMM? Think about it.
18) Do you believe in karma?
No, just cruel irony.
19) What does your URL mean?
My singular URL is aud.ition, which is my blog/resume-thingy. My stepdad owns .ition and .itory (not .itty, sadly, that one has potential), and my name is Audrey, so it's also a delightful little play on words.
20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
21) Who is your celebrity crush?
22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
Ha, no.
23) How do you vent your anger?
Ha, no.
23) How do you vent your anger?
I try to distract myself from it, get busy doing other things until I can think about it more rationally. I don't like fighting with people, so I usually cut myself off when I get too angry. And if all else fails, vent art.
24) Do you have a collection of anything?
Tiny stuff. I just can't get enough of it. Miniatures, dollhouse furniture, small figurines... anything that is a smaller version of bigger things.
25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
I'm super awkward on both. I'm with Pseudo on this one, having an undo button is a handy feature that doesn't come with talking.
26) Are you happy with the person you've become?
Eh, I dunno. There are plenty of small ways I feel I could improve, but I don't feel any great need to do so. Conversely, I can think of a number of large ways I could be much much worse. So I guess I'm fairly neutral about myself at this moment in time.
27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
Any loud, sudden noises. That's basically my instant panic button.
I really like the sound of shattering glass/ice, which is pretty bizarre if you think about it...
28) What's your biggest "what if"?
That's... private.
29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
I don't know. I believe in the afterlife, or at least that there's something else after we die; I kind of have to, otherwise my Grandpa and my uncle are just... gone. Which hurts too much to ponder. As for ghosts specifically, until I have solid evidence/personal experience to prove or disprove their existence, I'm going to keep an open mind with a healthy bit of skepticism.
I think that there surely must be other life out there; if the universe really is infinite, then the odds actually support it. As for alien abductions and that sort of stuff, I'm taking the same attitude as my view on ghosts. Other life may very well exist, but if it was advanced enough to find us before we found it, I think they'd stay the crap away.
30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm
I think my left arm can stay right where it is after that, thank you very much.
31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
My room? Nothing, really. (Man, wouldn't it suck if snot had a smell? A really nasty one? Eugh.)
32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
My room? Nothing, really. (Man, wouldn't it suck if snot had a smell? A really nasty one? Eugh.)
32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
Over-crowded public school cafeteria. Which sounds weird, but it's true. I have this recurring nightmare where I'm in some sort of cafeteria, but no matter which line I get into, they're serving glop. I can even get out and go to the end of a completely different line, but I always wind up at the same place, with an angry lunch lady staring me down over a ladle of sludge... Also, I feel like I'm going to die the entire time.
33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?
Neither! I like it here in the middle.
34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
*shrugs* I'll listen to nearly anything, but I honestly have no idea what most singers look like.
35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
That's a loaded question. Does something need to have a meaning in order to be good or enjoyable? If you really insist, I guess the meaning of life is to live it.
36) Define Art.
Hmmm.... art is something someone creates because it has meaning to them. That's what I think.
37) Do you believe in luck?
Yes. I don't have any. I believe in statistics and probability, too, but neither of those can explain why I always need to flip USB cables over two times to plug them in. Mathematically, it's quite astounding.
38) What's the weather like right now?
It's been snowing. All. Day. Long. I miss the sun.
39) What time is it?
12:48 in the morning. I should go to bed.
40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
I don't drive, firstly because we can't afford a car/insurance, but also because I'm terrified that I would crash...
41) What was the last book you read?
The Sociopath Next Door. Turns out my biological dad is one, trying to come to terms with that (and have been for years)...
42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
No, it gives me a headache. Easily one of my least favorite smells.
43) Do you have any nicknames?
Aud. Just Aud. Which is pronounced 'odd'. Make of that what you will.
44) What was the last movie you saw?
How to Train Your Dragon. I love that movie.
45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
In the summer of 2006 or 2007, I tripped on a couch cushion my brother had decided needed to be on the floor for reasons unknown, sprained my ankle horribly, and banged my leg just above it on a small step in our living room as I fell to the floor, giving myself some of the worst bruises I've ever had. All of this right before a trip to the movies, which was hastily cancelled in favor of x-rays, and also a camping trip the following weekend. I stayed at my aunt's house. On the plus side, I'm now really good at using crutches!
46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
No, but not for lack of trying. I found a dead bee, stinger-side-up, with my bare foot instead D:
47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
No, but it probably won't be long now. I kinda cycle through two or three big ones.
48) What's your sexual orientation?
Not a clue. Never been in any sort of relationship other than 'friend' or 'family member', so I've never found out.
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
My third grade teacher told the class I was mentally retarded one day when I was home sick. Wasn't that kind of her.
50) Do you believe in magic?
I so wish it was real. I could use some magic.
51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
Not really. There are some people I just can't stand to be near very long, but they're always guilty of some incredibly terrible stuff. It takes a lot to really get under my skin.
52) What is your astrological sign?
53) Do you save money or spend it?
Save it. I don't have a job and rarely come by money that doesn't need to be used right away, so I tend to jealously hoard spare cash for months, carefully deliberating on what to use it for.
54) What's the last thing you purchased?
Uh... *thinks for a minute* Also Pokemon X, actually. Still haven't beat the Elite Four, though; waiting until I can transfer certain Pokemon over.
55) Love or lust?
Love. I think I'd be too timid to be driven by lust, even if I did feel it towards someone.